I guess it’s been a long time since I’ve written a blog, but I wanted to try something. I was living with this diagnosis like it was all of me. I was no longer a student/barista/exercise enthusiast/grammar queen/vegetarian food lover. I was pain and a broken digestive system.
Everything I ate hurt and I could barely work, so forget about working out. I was writing this blog because it was all I had, and all I could feel was a hopelessness. Was I going to be like that forever? Would food always hurt me? Would I be living, weak and tired, for the rest of my life? I had to do something, focus on anything else, so I took a blog hiatus. I focused on taking my medication at the right times, finding the foods that didn’t hurt, maybe not subsisting entirely on cabbage in its various forms, doing yoga if I couldn’t lift weights or go for a run, smiling, laughing, and just getting out of my pessimistic brain.
Things progressed slowly. One week, everything hurt. The next, maybe a few things weren’t too bad, and then, months later, I can eat just about anything as long as it isn’t granola-hard. The summer was excellent. I started running outside again, so much that I stopped going to the gym. I did yoga for digestion and relaxation. I worked on my stress levels. I ate FOOD, real food, veggies and everything. I went on vacation to the beach. I found myself again, and despite my dysfunctional digestive system, I no longer feel that my life is ulcerated.
School has been going well; my grades are all A’s, and I haven’t had to miss work at all, because even on my bad days, this autoimmune disease is manageable. I feel tired often, but b-vitamins seem to help. Exercise is empowering, and every time I pick up a kettlebell or run a mile, I know I’m going to be fine. The future is uncertain, but right now, life is great. 🙂
Right now, I am busy. I have my full-time job, plus classes full-time, a second job tutoring in English/writing essays at the college, and a third job I haven’t started yet, for which I will do an announcement sometime in the near future. It’s something about which I am incredibly passionate, and I am so excited to share the news!